So, I spontaneously jumped into some things as I often do. I decided to go to college in Charlotte for Simulation and Game Development. Why? Well, why not!? Games are pretty much my life right now since I haven’t been drawing (I do miss it so), and I would love to learn how to create them. Getting any degree isn’t a bad idea either. Sure, I could end up working at Starbucks, but they have great benefits. And I would totally get the job over that high school dropout because they can’t recreate Pac-Man and I have a degree that proves I can.
Corey got a job, which is wonderful, and I was so ecstatic when I heard the news and still am. He’s working now as an associate underwriter. Or assistant underwriter… same thing, anyway. Of course, that meant he was moving to Charlotte. So, I hopped on the boat (without a life jacket). I decided to start my fresh college career over the summer, so I could live with Corey in Charlotte. I’m not drowning yet but the waters are harsh.
Why am I able to go to college suddenly, when I can’t even work a job for more than two weeks or fill out any paperwork? Well, I get better in the summertime, and feel ambitious. I take on a lot while I can, which I regret later. Such as, taking two summer courses. One is hard. Two is near impossible for me. I have to pick and choose which assignments to do because I can’t finish them all. I probably could if I had an infinite supply of Ritalin (which is the only thing that keeps me going these days)… but I don’t want to take too much of it, else I’ll abuse it somehow. I just can’t concentrate on anything for more than 10-15 minutes, even video games, unless I have some Ritalin in my system.
But, when I’m not lying on the couch doing nothing (and I mean nothing, not even watching TV) and feel up to doing stuff, I clean the apartment and cook dinner and such wifely duties on top of schoolwork. No, not married yet. Might as well be! But then I wouldn’t get my survival stipend from my parents, which I desperately need and appreciate.
The classes I’m taking are Intro to Simulation and Game Development, and 3D Modeling, both online. Intro to SGD is amazingly fun, despite all the work that stresses me out. I got to make three levels of my own game for my midterm, and I got full points on it. That felt good. Still waiting on the results of my 3D modeling midterm. I have no idea how that is going to go. I am okay at 3D modeling it’s just… so much trial and error it’s time consuming. And my perfectionist nature doesn’t help. Makes everything take 10 times longer. That doesn’t work because I’ve only got 10 minutes of concentration!
But, yeah, I stare at my work a lot, and try to do it, and it hurts my brain. Sometimes there’s just a block there and I can’t get around it. Corey doesn’t understand, he tries to get me to do my work and it just stresses him out. Meanwhile, if I have too much work and am blocked, then I just shut down altogether. But I reboot later and get the work done. And I know that I will. Hopefully. Right now I am blocked, so I am playing with my neglected blog. See, I put up a little shoutbox! Why? Not for shouting profanities, unless I want to, but mostly so I can type in little messages when I feel like it. The twitter box that was there didn’t work for everyone. Sometimes it showed up as a black box or as empty space. Or it took over the whole page. Well, it’s gone now.
Btw, I am getting a break from school in mid-July, so I will try to put out some comics then. Yay.