Hey, I found this post I thought got deleted when my computer crashed! It’s from the 22nd:

All I did today was sleep, eat, and poop. Just kidding, I’m a girl, I don’t poop.

Last night I didn’t sleep well. Lately I’ve been getting this gagging feeling in my throat/chest. I feel like if I gag or throw up I’ll feel better. I have a feeling it’s stress, since I have tons of schoolwork to do and I am not doing any of it. I just got put on Ritalin SR and it doesn’t work like Ritalin does. Ritalin SR is extended release Ritalin, so it slowly feeds you little bits of Ritalin, whereas hardcore Ritalin hits you hard and leaves you just as abruptly a couple hours later. But, it’s strong enough to get me going, unlike the SR. So I’m doomed because I only have so much normal Ritalin left and my next psychiatrist appt is in a month. Of course, my classes end July 9th, so if I can make it until then…

As I said, I couldn’t sleep last night so I got up at like 3 and came downstairs. Watched some Flintstones. There is never anything on tv late at night… although one night I got to watch Stand By Me. Good movie. There is a lot of bromance and it’s adorable. Boys are funny. They get so much chummier than girls it’s refreshing. I wish girls could get along that well, but in my experiences… we just can’t. I’ve had tons of female best friends that just turned out to be evil. One wrote me a letter, pretending to be a cute boy (the class bad boy) and said that he liked me and wanted to meet me on top of the slide at recess. I was a pleasantly plump girl (just a little pudge, really) with big glasses and no confidence, and it was just known that I was ugly by everyone, including me. So I was ecstatic to have someone like me. But I waited atop that slide and no one came.

All the boy best friends I had were the best. Especially Corey now. Erin (yes spelled the girl way, though he recently changed it to Aaron), was one of the best best friends ever. We went go-karting (I wasn’t allowed to drive because I tried once and drove it into a ditch…) and canoeing and camping. One day I took him out on the pond in his canoe and we drifted there in the middle for a while. I turned around to confront him and right then and there, in the middle of the pond with no escape, I asked if he wanted to be my boyfriend. He said yes and was very excited, as was I! Then we never hung out again! So I’m not sure whether it counts as a relationship or not.