28/08: Comics Update
There will be a LoveADD update today! Finally. It's been hard to draw being dizzy and all, but I pushed through. I guess it's no different than pushing through my own ADD (no, I don't really have that too, it's just a short short short attention span). If you knew how quickly I could really draw these if I had someone behind me whipping me to keep going, you would whip me too.
Hero +/- has been on hiatus, even though I am still interested in drawing it. The problem is the next page to do has a background in it, so those always hinder me. I ought to be working on it soon, though. Possibly today. It will be the last page of Chapter 4, then on to Chapter 5!
Pigeon is on hiatus as usual. I have no interest in it right now O_O
I feel bad, because there are actually people saying "draw more Pigeon!" which makes me happy, but Pigeon is the hardest to draw of the three and I'm bored with it. @_@ Maybe if I write the story out for people instead? That would go much faster. I think if you already know what the people look like you can pretty much visualize the happenings from script anyway.
I am also working on a picture of Snake for my boyfriend, per his request. Thank you, boyfriend, for choosing someone with such a complicated outfit. Generally I draw people with hoodies. XD I feel bad that his drawing is on the backburner, because I really want to do this for him, but drawing things for other people stunts me. Puts me into perfectionist mode and I can't draw freely.
Ohhhhhh I love drawing/writing.
Hero +/- has been on hiatus, even though I am still interested in drawing it. The problem is the next page to do has a background in it, so those always hinder me. I ought to be working on it soon, though. Possibly today. It will be the last page of Chapter 4, then on to Chapter 5!
Pigeon is on hiatus as usual. I have no interest in it right now O_O
I feel bad, because there are actually people saying "draw more Pigeon!" which makes me happy, but Pigeon is the hardest to draw of the three and I'm bored with it. @_@ Maybe if I write the story out for people instead? That would go much faster. I think if you already know what the people look like you can pretty much visualize the happenings from script anyway.
I am also working on a picture of Snake for my boyfriend, per his request. Thank you, boyfriend, for choosing someone with such a complicated outfit. Generally I draw people with hoodies. XD I feel bad that his drawing is on the backburner, because I really want to do this for him, but drawing things for other people stunts me. Puts me into perfectionist mode and I can't draw freely.
Ohhhhhh I love drawing/writing.
26/08: Still dizzy but
I am currently on hiatus from work due to mental/emotional issues.
These issues all went away as soon as I stopped working.
Today I am doing the "I don't have to work~" song and dance number.
These issues all went away as soon as I stopped working.
Today I am doing the "I don't have to work~" song and dance number.
23/08: One week
This week has been really hard for me for several reasons.
Firstly,
I've been realizing how much I miss doing things with Andy. For the past half a year I've just been trying not to think about his tragic death, and have been pretending he's just gone away for a while, possibly on tour as a rock star. Now I've been missing his company. I saw an episode of Jon & Kate Plus 8 where the girls ran into the boys' room to wake up their siblings in the morning, and I missed being able to wake my brother up or having him wake me up. (We both seemed to oversleep so it was kind of a turtle's race to see who woke up first. Of course we'd only bother waking each other for video games or to make the other get food.)
I also miss playing video games with him. The other day I put Ghost Andy on first player for Dynasty Warriors 6 so I could play 2nd player as usual. "You want to play Guan Yu like always? Okay." "Man, I am whooping you on kills here." "Finally, I have surpassed you in video games!" His character stood there, directionless.
My mom has had an even rougher week in missing Andy, being sick, and having to study for her Real Estate course exam. Dad seems like he's due for a sad week but it's hard to tell with him. He and I tend to bottle up our feelings about Andy most of the time but it always comes out once in a while. I may actually be doing the best out of us three grief-wise, even though I worshiped the ground that boy walked on. Well, I could talk for days about Andy. Let's leave it be for a bit.
Secondly,
I am SO DIZZY I cannot think or see straight. It's been going on for a week but since I tend to get dizzy spells every once in a while from depression/medication I overlooked it, but this time the dizziness is 24 hours of constant confusion and it's driving me CRAZY. The worst part is that drawing is nearly impossible and almost painful in this state. I barely managed to get out three comics this week and certainly didn't get to work on manga pages, which really stresses me out. I'm missing that feeling of accomplishment I get from each page I complete, and that release of creative energy I get from drawing. ARGH it is so frustrating!!
I went to the doctor today for the dizziness. I hate going to the doctor's and usually wait things out but since this dizziness was inhibiting me from the things I love to do and wouldn't go away for even a minute, I decided to go in. I figured it was probably an inner ear infection, which I'm prone to. I went to see my least favorite doctor of the three that work at the office I go to, and just reaffirmed why I can't stand this lady.
I tell the doctor all of my problems, she examines me, and then scribbles out a prescription for me. She doesn't tell me what's wrong with me, she just gives me a prescription. I ask her "So, what is it?" and she describes the medicine to me and says if it doesn't work she'll send me to the Balance Clinic. Then she leaves. So, I don't know what's wrong with me exactly and I'm guessing she doesn't either, but I thought she'd at least try to treat me for an inner ear infection with antibiotics, but all I ended up getting was a prescription for a special antihistamine you can get over the counter.
If this doesn't help, I am going to smack that lady. I AM GOING CRAZY WITH THIS DIZZINESS ::sob::
Thirdly,
I've been depressed this week. Not going to get into it much, but all I can say is when you would honestly and seriously rather die than do something, but you HAVE to do that something to survive in society and you can't off yourself because your parents have already lost a child and you don't want your boyfriend to be sad either, you are going to suffer much in the mind.
OH and fourthly,
Corey has left for college and can't afford the cost of gas to come back every other weekend like usual, so I will be getting less love than ever. ;_;
Ugh, just at least let this dizziness go away. The rest is usual business.
Firstly,
I've been realizing how much I miss doing things with Andy. For the past half a year I've just been trying not to think about his tragic death, and have been pretending he's just gone away for a while, possibly on tour as a rock star. Now I've been missing his company. I saw an episode of Jon & Kate Plus 8 where the girls ran into the boys' room to wake up their siblings in the morning, and I missed being able to wake my brother up or having him wake me up. (We both seemed to oversleep so it was kind of a turtle's race to see who woke up first. Of course we'd only bother waking each other for video games or to make the other get food.)
I also miss playing video games with him. The other day I put Ghost Andy on first player for Dynasty Warriors 6 so I could play 2nd player as usual. "You want to play Guan Yu like always? Okay." "Man, I am whooping you on kills here." "Finally, I have surpassed you in video games!" His character stood there, directionless.
My mom has had an even rougher week in missing Andy, being sick, and having to study for her Real Estate course exam. Dad seems like he's due for a sad week but it's hard to tell with him. He and I tend to bottle up our feelings about Andy most of the time but it always comes out once in a while. I may actually be doing the best out of us three grief-wise, even though I worshiped the ground that boy walked on. Well, I could talk for days about Andy. Let's leave it be for a bit.
Secondly,
I am SO DIZZY I cannot think or see straight. It's been going on for a week but since I tend to get dizzy spells every once in a while from depression/medication I overlooked it, but this time the dizziness is 24 hours of constant confusion and it's driving me CRAZY. The worst part is that drawing is nearly impossible and almost painful in this state. I barely managed to get out three comics this week and certainly didn't get to work on manga pages, which really stresses me out. I'm missing that feeling of accomplishment I get from each page I complete, and that release of creative energy I get from drawing. ARGH it is so frustrating!!
I went to the doctor today for the dizziness. I hate going to the doctor's and usually wait things out but since this dizziness was inhibiting me from the things I love to do and wouldn't go away for even a minute, I decided to go in. I figured it was probably an inner ear infection, which I'm prone to. I went to see my least favorite doctor of the three that work at the office I go to, and just reaffirmed why I can't stand this lady.
I tell the doctor all of my problems, she examines me, and then scribbles out a prescription for me. She doesn't tell me what's wrong with me, she just gives me a prescription. I ask her "So, what is it?" and she describes the medicine to me and says if it doesn't work she'll send me to the Balance Clinic. Then she leaves. So, I don't know what's wrong with me exactly and I'm guessing she doesn't either, but I thought she'd at least try to treat me for an inner ear infection with antibiotics, but all I ended up getting was a prescription for a special antihistamine you can get over the counter.
If this doesn't help, I am going to smack that lady. I AM GOING CRAZY WITH THIS DIZZINESS ::sob::
Thirdly,
I've been depressed this week. Not going to get into it much, but all I can say is when you would honestly and seriously rather die than do something, but you HAVE to do that something to survive in society and you can't off yourself because your parents have already lost a child and you don't want your boyfriend to be sad either, you are going to suffer much in the mind.
OH and fourthly,
Corey has left for college and can't afford the cost of gas to come back every other weekend like usual, so I will be getting less love than ever. ;_;
Ugh, just at least let this dizziness go away. The rest is usual business.
18/08: The Giver
When I go out shopping I can't spend my own money on myself.
But I can spend other people's money on myself, and my own money on other people.
But I can spend other people's money on myself, and my own money on other people.
12/08: End of Battle
The song they play after each event at the Olympics is also a
Dynasty Warriors theme song. Hee.
Dynasty Warriors theme song. Hee.
10/08: Well-read
I read 150 pages of a book today.
Then I woke up.
Then I woke up.
08/08: Muscohl
For a moment I thought I saw definition in my upper arm...
And then I couldn't find it again.
And then I couldn't find it again.
03/08: Safety
I wear the bright orange safety vest for my job.
It gets caught on everything.
It gets caught on everything.
24/07: It has been decided
Corey and I have been talking, and... we've decided... that...
Orlando Jones is Jeff Goldblum in disguise.
Orlando Jones is Jeff Goldblum in disguise.
23/07: Walking Man
The Legend of Walking Man
There's a man that walks around our neighborhood seemingly all day long, for the past 6 years (that we know of). He lives in a house outside the neighborhood with his father, "waving man" (the man who sits outside every morning and waves to passing cars). Walking Man wears the same clothing everyday: black boots, black jeans, black tucked-in t-shirt. His head is shaved and he wears a shaggy mustache-chin beard down to his chest. You can see some tattoos on his arms and I can't remember correctly but he might have an ear piercing or two. Yes, he looks like a guy you would find at a bar for motorcycle gangs.
The legend of Walking Man grew over time. Some (my father) say he is a recovering alcoholic who uses walking to replace his past addictions. Others (me) say he killed someone and buried them beneath the floorboards of his father's house so he walks to get away from the house that haunts him.
One day, working at the grocery store, I finally got to meet the man of the legend. (I was bagging his groceries.)
Shan: (Oh dear god, is that walking man!? Who else dresses like that... No, there's no mistake...)
Shan: E-excuse me, sir, but do you, um, walk around the neighborhood...?
Walking Man (speaking softly so that you could barely hear him): Yes, in the morning and in the afternoon...
Shan: Wow! It is you! I call you Walking Man!
Walking Man(shy, tries to hide behind his beard): Lots of people ask me about it.
Shan: You're a huge celebrity around here!
Walking Man(flushed) laughs softly and then leaves.
He seemed happy that I mentioned it but I could tell that he's a really shy person. Definitely not a people-person. Well, walking by yourself is a good way to avoid people.
And that's how I got to meet Walking Man.
There's a man that walks around our neighborhood seemingly all day long, for the past 6 years (that we know of). He lives in a house outside the neighborhood with his father, "waving man" (the man who sits outside every morning and waves to passing cars). Walking Man wears the same clothing everyday: black boots, black jeans, black tucked-in t-shirt. His head is shaved and he wears a shaggy mustache-chin beard down to his chest. You can see some tattoos on his arms and I can't remember correctly but he might have an ear piercing or two. Yes, he looks like a guy you would find at a bar for motorcycle gangs.
The legend of Walking Man grew over time. Some (my father) say he is a recovering alcoholic who uses walking to replace his past addictions. Others (me) say he killed someone and buried them beneath the floorboards of his father's house so he walks to get away from the house that haunts him.
One day, working at the grocery store, I finally got to meet the man of the legend. (I was bagging his groceries.)
Shan: (Oh dear god, is that walking man!? Who else dresses like that... No, there's no mistake...)
Shan: E-excuse me, sir, but do you, um, walk around the neighborhood...?
Walking Man (speaking softly so that you could barely hear him): Yes, in the morning and in the afternoon...
Shan: Wow! It is you! I call you Walking Man!
Walking Man(shy, tries to hide behind his beard): Lots of people ask me about it.
Shan: You're a huge celebrity around here!
Walking Man(flushed) laughs softly and then leaves.
He seemed happy that I mentioned it but I could tell that he's a really shy person. Definitely not a people-person. Well, walking by yourself is a good way to avoid people.
And that's how I got to meet Walking Man.
